I’ve been having a tough time. I mean a really tough time. How bad? you may ask. Well, I’ve cried pretty well non-stop for 3 days. Why? you ask. I’m not 100% sure, although here’s an idea:

I just “celebrated” a milestone birthday – 25. To some, 25 sounds awesome. The prime of life. The best days. Yeah, not to me. I’ve always had a fear of growing up and this birthday just made my world fall apart.

Age really shouldn’t matter though, should it? It’s not much different than the year before. Yes, true, but to someone who cannot stand the thought of being an adult and living an adult life, this was detrimental to not only my mental health but my physical health as well. Or at least I let it be detrimental.

For the past 3 days, I’ve had awful headaches and migraines due to the constant crying. I’ve also been eating the worst foods… chips, chocolate, cakes, sweets, crackers… all processed and making my stomach feel “ewwy”. I have huge bags under my eyes (also thanks to the fabulous nutrition) as well as a constant drowsy and dizzy feeling.

I’ve decided to try something to get over this… say FUCK IT. Ahhh, easier said than done, my friends. I just made 3 large batches of juice (whole, organic and natural) to at least get some nutrients in me. I know for a fact that nutrition has an impact on your mental health. I’ve also decided to start writing again (yipee for you guys! lol). I need to “do me”.

About 2 weeks ago, I enrolled in a nutrition diploma course. Because of the birthday preparations and parties, I haven’t been very studious. Well, that is going to change just as soon as I’m done writing this (priorities, right?!).

The only way that I can think of to stop feeling so yucky is to try and take control of my life. Along with my issues regarding “being an adult”, I also have issues with control. I always need to be in control. I’ve had a lot of problems stem from this, so what better way to turn my life around – use my control issues to my advantage. Instead of trying to control things in a negative way (i.e. my past issues with anorexia), I’m going to attempt to control the good things in my life.

Wish me luck.


Inner Wonderings


Benefits of Aloe Vera


Growing up, my mom had a beautiful aloe plant. Anytime my sister or I hurt ourselves, my mom would head straight to the aloe plant. “It has healing gel inside” she would say. My sister and I called it the “magic plant” because our scrapes and burns would heal so quickly.

As an adult, I had almost forgotten about the “magic plant”. Sure I had a bottle of aloe gel for sunburns, but I didn’t ever think about actually getting an aloe plant. Then, when my boyfriend and I were walking through a garden centre, I spotted some aloe plants. I instantly remembered the magical plant and its healing capabilities that I used to covet as a child. “I have to get one”  I said to my boyfriend.

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Here are some benefits of aloe vera:

  • Skincare: I rub some of the gel on my face every other night. It is super moisturizing and anti-bacterial so it helps heal and prevent acne. It has really helped to fade my spots, soften my skin and keep pimples at bay. It is amazing… honestly.
  • Ease sunburns: If you spent too much time in the sun and have a burn to show for it, aloe can help! Just rub some of the gel on your burn and it will help soothe the pain and bring down any swelling.
  • Aloe has TONS of vitamins & minerals: Vitamin A, C, E, folic acid, B1, B2, B3, B6, B12 and choline are all found in the aloe plant. There are also 20 minerals such as calcium, zinc, selenium, iron, potassium, copper and manganese.
  • If you have problems with digestion, try aloe! IBS, acid reflux, constipation, diarrhea – they can all be treated by aloe! Aloe reduces the amount of “bad” bacteria in our digestive systems which leads to a regulated cycle.
  • Detox: since aloe is a gelatinous plant, it helps to absorb toxins as it moves through our digestive systems. It takes the toxins with it when it is excreated from our system.
  • Get sick less: aloe helps to boost our immune systems. Because of the anti-oxidant properties and its high levels of vitamins and minerals, it can actually help your body fight against viruses and infections. It is also said to help lower a fever.
  • Weight loss: yes, I went there. If something claims to help with weight loss, it will sell. But for real, because of the anti-oxidant, digestive aiding properties of this “magical” plant, it can absolutely aid in weight loss.

Eating/drinking it is totally safe – to a certain extent. Just like anything else, moderation is key. Be sure to research how to ingest it and what the best dosage is.

I hope you find aloe as magical as I do 🙂


Mindful Positivity


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Have you ever paid attention to the things you think? Have you noticed any patterns? I don’t know about your mind, but mine is hardwired into thinking negatively. I’m not sure when this started to happen or why, but I have recently become more mindful of this fact.

I’ve noticed that not only do I think negatively about other people, but that I am extremely negative to myself. “I’m not that smart”. “I can’t think creatively”. “I suck at math”. “I’m never going to find a job”. What is the point to that? Why put yourself down so often? The answer: excuses. We create these excuses to make us believe that we are not able to reach our goals. That way, if we don’t reach our goals, we don’t feel bad.

It’s embarrassing the amount of times that I’ve caught myself thinking things like “life is out to get me” or “of course this is happening, I can’t do anything right”. It seriously disgusts me that I’ve fallen into a habit of thinking about myself so negatively. But imagine I stopped? Imagine if I turned those thoughts into positive ones? I believe that our brains are a lot more powerful than we think. Just think of the possibilities when we convince ourselves that we can do something. “I am smart”. “I feel so happy”. “I am a successful person”. Happiness ensues.

I found a really interesting TED Talk on changing the way you think and rewiring the brain to think more positively. It’s definitely worth a watch:

Are you mindful of your thoughts? How have you started to change the neural pathways in your brain?

Just Breathe










Have you ever felt down? Of course you have. It’s part of the human condition.

How do you get yourself out of that funk? Do you listen to music, read a book, talk to a friend? Do you handle it well? Do you drink yourself into oblivion to escape?

I get sad at around the same time each month (hint). I don’t handle it well. I don’t deal with stress, anxiety or sadness well at all. And you know what sucks? I have to go through this every month. So does my boyfriend. I really try to just get over it and see past the week or so of sadness. I know I’ll be back to my happy, bubbly self once again.

I start to dwell on the things in my life that aren’t perfect. The money I still owe, the job that I don’t love, the house that I don’t own. None of that bothers me the other 3 weeks of the month. Ahhh, good ol’ hormones.

Sometimes it makes me feel better when I write things down. I don’t have a journal per say, but I do have several word documents on my computer filled with pointless ramblings of a somewhat crazy hormonal mess. This is how I cope. It’s not a perfect method (clearly), but it does give me some release. I only write when I want to, or rather when I feel I need to. I never liked having a “journal” because of the pressure to write everyday.

One thing that writing my feelings down provides me with is the ability to breathe. After I read what I wrote, I get a feeling of lightness. I feel like my chest has loosened and that I am able to take a breath. Just breathe.

See if it works for you.

Much love to everyone. Just remember you are not alone – if I could give you a hug in real life I would, but you’ll just have to accept a virtual hug 🙂


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Spring Cleaning | Your Closet


Cleaning up after a long, cold winter can bring a sense of renewal as exciting as that first breath of spring air.   There’s just something invigorating about making the windows letting the sunshine in and clearing out the cobwebs that lures us into the spring cleaning ritual each year.

A good place to begin is your closet. It will help to motivate you to get to the rest of your house cleaned, and it will also give you the chance to donate some things to people who need them more than you.

I did a big purge. And I mean BIG. I got rid of 80% of my clothing in an effort to begin to live simpler. Here are some questions I asked myself when deciding on whether to keep an item or donate it:

  • Have I worn this in the past 3 months?
  • If I was shopping right now, would I buy this?
  • Do I need this? or is there something else that does its job better?
  • Does it fit me… better yet does it look good on me?
  • Does it go with at least 4 other items in the closet?

If I answered no to any of those questions, it was gone. Someone else needs it more than I do.

After going through my clothes, I turned to my shoes. I recently had surgery on my foot and I most likely won’t be able to wear heels again. I got rid of all heels and any other uncomfortable shoes that just sat there. I also threw out broken flip flops and shoes with holes in them {why did I even have those?!}

Then I looked at my purses. Holy man: purses galore. I hadn’t used probably 90% of them in years. So guess what I did? That’s right – gone.

I ended up donating 14 bags of clothes & accessories to a local women’s shelter. Do you even know how good it felt to do that?

Not once have I wished that I had kept a certain item. Also, my laundry is so much easier and I actually do it more often. I used to let my laundry pile grow and would end up having to do 6 loads. Now, I do one small light and one small dark each week. Everything has a place and my clothes are no longer strewn across my bedroom. Plus, since I know everything looks good on me, I don’t do 12 outfit changes in the morning before work.

It’s amazing what a difference it has made on my life and on others’ lives. There is no better feeling than that.

Mission and Vision


When a business is started, a Mission and Vision Statement are usually produced to keep the business on track. Sometimes, these statements change as the business evolves. This seems like a good idea for businesses, but what about for humans? What about personal vision & mission statements to keep us on track.

The thought came to me while I was at work examining the company’s development over its 60 years. The statements never changed. I got to thinking about the necessity of these statements. Almost every business I have worked for has had statements such as these. Then I thought, well why don’t I have these statements for my personal life?

What are Mission & Vision Statements?

Well, a Vision Statement defines the optimal desired future. It provides long term guidance and inspiration to employees & leaders of the company. Essentially it is the “big picture”, the end result. For example, Alzheimer’s Association’s Vision Statement is: “Our Vision is a world without Alzheimer’s disease.”

A Mission Statement defines the present purpose of the organization and answers three questions: what it does, who it does it for, and how it does what it does. This is usually the statement that changes the most. As the economy changes, the company needs to evolve. For example, Target’s Mission Statement is: “Our mission is to make Target the preferred shopping destination for our guests by delivering outstanding value, continuous innovation and an exceptional guest experience by consistently fulfilling our Expect More. Pay Less.® brand promise.”

Cool, but what does this have to do with me?

You are your own entity. You are, in other words, a business. Why shouldn’t you have mission & vision statements?  This is a good way to think about your goals in life, your passions and your purpose on this earth. Many of us don’t think about things like that. We just go on living a “normal” life.


So, here is my challenge to you; think about what your Vision & Mission Statements would be. I don’t have either for myself… yet. It’s not something that is easy to come up with. It requires a lot of thought; that’s the whole point.


Get thinking! See what you come up with.


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