I’ve been having a tough time. I mean a really tough time. How bad? you may ask. Well, I’ve cried pretty well non-stop for 3 days. Why? you ask. I’m not 100% sure, although here’s an idea:

I just “celebrated” a milestone birthday – 25. To some, 25 sounds awesome. The prime of life. The best days. Yeah, not to me. I’ve always had a fear of growing up and this birthday just made my world fall apart.

Age really shouldn’t matter though, should it? It’s not much different than the year before. Yes, true, but to someone who cannot stand the thought of being an adult and living an adult life, this was detrimental to not only my mental health but my physical health as well. Or at least I let it be detrimental.

For the past 3 days, I’ve had awful headaches and migraines due to the constant crying. I’ve also been eating the worst foods… chips, chocolate, cakes, sweets, crackers… all processed and making my stomach feel “ewwy”. I have huge bags under my eyes (also thanks to the fabulous nutrition) as well as a constant drowsy and dizzy feeling.

I’ve decided to try something to get over this… say FUCK IT. Ahhh, easier said than done, my friends. I just made 3 large batches of juice (whole, organic and natural) to at least get some nutrients in me. I know for a fact that nutrition has an impact on your mental health. I’ve also decided to start writing again (yipee for you guys! lol). I need to “do me”.

About 2 weeks ago, I enrolled in a nutrition diploma course. Because of the birthday preparations and parties, I haven’t been very studious. Well, that is going to change just as soon as I’m done writing this (priorities, right?!).

The only way that I can think of to stop feeling so yucky is to try and take control of my life. Along with my issues regarding “being an adult”, I also have issues with control. I always need to be in control. I’ve had a lot of problems stem from this, so what better way to turn my life around – use my control issues to my advantage. Instead of trying to control things in a negative way (i.e. my past issues with anorexia), I’m going to attempt to control the good things in my life.

Wish me luck.


Inner Wonderings


6 Questions That Will Change Your Life


I came across a website. I know, big surprise right? Well, this website is awesome. It’s called Tiny Buddha.

An entry that I found to be very inspiring is called “6 Powerful Questions That Will Change Your Life Forever”. Of course this intrigued me.

Here are the questions and I thought I would share my answers. Go check out that post… it may just change your life forever.

What do I absolutely love in life?

  • Music
  • Cooking
  • Nutrition
  • Learning
  • Documentaries
  • Being outside
  • Writing
  • Photography

What are my greatest accomplishments in life so far?

  • Overcoming an eating disorder
  • Overcoming depression/anxiety
  • Meeting the love of my life
  • Keeping a strong connection with my family

What would I stand for if I knew no one would judge me?

  •  Freedom
  • Anti-money
  • A brand new society

If my life had absolutely no limits and I could have it all and do whatever I wanted, what would I choose to have and what would I choose to do?

  • Travel the world
  • Take pictures of the world
  • Constant learning
  • Be around people I love
  • Never feel pressured to go to work

What would I do if I had one billion dollars?

  • Travel the world
  • Learn
  • Help others around the world
  • Wake up when I wanted to
  • Do whatever I wanted that day
  • Create: make things with my hands: paintings, art, sculptures
  • Write a book
  • Change peoples’ lives

Who do I admire most in the world?

People who are genuinely happy with their lives – not one specific person


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