Depression

I’ve been having a tough time. I mean a really tough time. How bad? you may ask. Well, I’ve cried pretty well non-stop for 3 days. Why? you ask. I’m not 100% sure, although here’s an idea:

I just “celebrated” a milestone birthday – 25. To some, 25 sounds awesome. The prime of life. The best days. Yeah, not to me. I’ve always had a fear of growing up and this birthday just made my world fall apart.

Age really shouldn’t matter though, should it? It’s not much different than the year before. Yes, true, but to someone who cannot stand the thought of being an adult and living an adult life, this was detrimental to not only my mental health but my physical health as well. Or at least I let it be detrimental.

For the past 3 days, I’ve had awful headaches and migraines due to the constant crying. I’ve also been eating the worst foods… chips, chocolate, cakes, sweets, crackers… all processed and making my stomach feel “ewwy”. I have huge bags under my eyes (also thanks to the fabulous nutrition) as well as a constant drowsy and dizzy feeling.

I’ve decided to try something to get over this… say FUCK IT. Ahhh, easier said than done, my friends. I just made 3 large batches of juice (whole, organic and natural) to at least get some nutrients in me. I know for a fact that nutrition has an impact on your mental health. I’ve also decided to start writing again (yipee for you guys! lol). I need to “do me”.

About 2 weeks ago, I enrolled in a nutrition diploma course. Because of the birthday preparations and parties, I haven’t been very studious. Well, that is going to change just as soon as I’m done writing this (priorities, right?!).

The only way that I can think of to stop feeling so yucky is to try and take control of my life. Along with my issues regarding “being an adult”, I also have issues with control. I always need to be in control. I’ve had a lot of problems stem from this, so what better way to turn my life around – use my control issues to my advantage. Instead of trying to control things in a negative way (i.e. my past issues with anorexia), I’m going to attempt to control the good things in my life.

Wish me luck.

XOXO

Inner Wonderings

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Fully Raw Pasta with Tomato Sauce

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Hello!

I’m so proud of myself for making this fully raw “pasta” with tomato sauce! Oh my gosh everyone… it was awesome! I couldn’t believe how yummy it was!

I’m going to make it again and get photos of each step for you.

Let’s take a closer look shall we:

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Nothing was cooked. IT WAS SO GOOD! I’m not going to lie, it was bizarre to be eating a “pasta” that wasn’t hot; very peculiar… but I got over it and then had seconds.

I promise to have the recipe for you as soon as I make it again (I honestly don’t remember everything that I put in)

Do you have any raw dinner dishes that I should try?

Getting Back on the Wagon

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Well ladies and gentlemen, I have fallen off the wagon.

I was so careful about the foods and drinks I was consuming until recently. Camping, cottages, trailers and parties have all taken their toll on my diet.

Hamburgers, hotdogs, processed foods, packaged potato salad, cheese and more cheese. As much as I love the taste of all of these things, I know that I have been eating too much of them. I really haven’t eaten much in the way of fresh fruits and veggies… gasp! I know. I feel like a bachelor in college. Easy, fast foods seem to be the way in the summer time. I can’t really lug my juicer around to cottages and campsites, now can I?

I have also ignored my exercise regiment… completely. I feel like S#!+ now.

What’s my plan, you may ask? To get back into the swing of things. I may not be able to take my juicer with me on my weekend excursions, but hey! I still have all week!

Here’s my plan

Breakfast:
– My favourite green juice (Kale, cucumbers, celery, lemon, ginger, apples and pineapple)
– 1 banana and/or chia pudding

Lunch:
– Carrot, apple and spinach juice
– Raw vegetable salad (kale, tomatoes, arugula, mushrooms, avocado & raw dressing or soy sauce)
– A plateful of fruits (peaches, pears, strawberries, raspberries – whatever I have!)

Dinner:
– Stir fry, vegan rice pasta dishes, sweet potatoes, chicken (I know… I do eat some meat), rice dishes etc.
– Vegetables, lots of vegetables
– Plate of fruit for dessert (again, whatever I have)

Snacks (1 -3 per day, depending on how hungry I am):
– Rice crackers and/or carrots and hummus
– Fruit
– Cucumber salad
– Cashews
– Almonds
– Granola

Drinks:
– As much water as possible throughout the day
– Black coffee (1-2 cups)
– Almond milk (when I want something creamy)

This eating plan is NOT to lose weight, as I am at a healthy weight already. I am just eating this way to promote health and wellness. When I eat good, whole foods, my body thanks me by providing me with more energy, a happier brain, shiny hair, soft skin and strong nails.

When I’m away, I will bring a ton of fruits and vegetables with me to eat throughout the day. It may be more expensive than a package of hotdogs, but I feel so much better when eating fresh plant-based foods. Also, it is the season for farm-fresh fruits and veggies which means farmers’ markets. You can get such a better deal when you shop for locally grown produce.

I also need to get back into my fitness routine. I have a gym down the road from me that I pay for each month. During the summer months, it is more difficult to get myself to the gym, but I’m going to at least take daily walks outside with my boyfriend.

I feel like this post was very new-years-resolution-y. Whatever, it’s now the middle of the year – who says resolutions have to be at the beginning of the year?

photo credit: mattieb via photopin cc

Juice

Juice. I love juice. So I began to use a juicer. My mom gave me hers after years of being a dedicated dust collector. What enjoyment comes of watching a whole apple get annihilated in 2 seconds. It. is. so. satisfying.

This is my go-to recipe:

  • 3 small green apples
  • 1/3 of a large pineapple
  • a bunch of kale (or spinach)
  • half of a lemon
  • about a 1″ square of ginger
  • 1 whole cucumber
  • 3-4 stalks of celery

I know it doesn’t sound all that appealing, but I have come to love it. I look forward to drinking it each morning. That recipe makes about a liter of juice… imagine eating all of that food in one sitting. Not possible (at least not for me).

Some people believe that juicing is a waste and that the nutrition gets lost in the process, but it’s so much better than drinking the sugar filled concentrated “fruit” juice from the grocery store. I really enjoy it.

The juicer that I invested in (after the donated juicer died) is the Breville JE98XL Two-Speed Juice Fountain Plus.

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I use this pretty much everyday, so in my journey to pare down this is going to stay.