I’ve been having a tough time. I mean a really tough time. How bad? you may ask. Well, I’ve cried pretty well non-stop for 3 days. Why? you ask. I’m not 100% sure, although here’s an idea:

I just “celebrated” a milestone birthday – 25. To some, 25 sounds awesome. The prime of life. The best days. Yeah, not to me. I’ve always had a fear of growing up and this birthday just made my world fall apart.

Age really shouldn’t matter though, should it? It’s not much different than the year before. Yes, true, but to someone who cannot stand the thought of being an adult and living an adult life, this was detrimental to not only my mental health but my physical health as well. Or at least I let it be detrimental.

For the past 3 days, I’ve had awful headaches and migraines due to the constant crying. I’ve also been eating the worst foods… chips, chocolate, cakes, sweets, crackers… all processed and making my stomach feel “ewwy”. I have huge bags under my eyes (also thanks to the fabulous nutrition) as well as a constant drowsy and dizzy feeling.

I’ve decided to try something to get over this… say FUCK IT. Ahhh, easier said than done, my friends. I just made 3 large batches of juice (whole, organic and natural) to at least get some nutrients in me. I know for a fact that nutrition has an impact on your mental health. I’ve also decided to start writing again (yipee for you guys! lol). I need to “do me”.

About 2 weeks ago, I enrolled in a nutrition diploma course. Because of the birthday preparations and parties, I haven’t been very studious. Well, that is going to change just as soon as I’m done writing this (priorities, right?!).

The only way that I can think of to stop feeling so yucky is to try and take control of my life. Along with my issues regarding “being an adult”, I also have issues with control. I always need to be in control. I’ve had a lot of problems stem from this, so what better way to turn my life around – use my control issues to my advantage. Instead of trying to control things in a negative way (i.e. my past issues with anorexia), I’m going to attempt to control the good things in my life.

Wish me luck.


Inner Wonderings


Benefits of Aloe Vera


Growing up, my mom had a beautiful aloe plant. Anytime my sister or I hurt ourselves, my mom would head straight to the aloe plant. “It has healing gel inside” she would say. My sister and I called it the “magic plant” because our scrapes and burns would heal so quickly.

As an adult, I had almost forgotten about the “magic plant”. Sure I had a bottle of aloe gel for sunburns, but I didn’t ever think about actually getting an aloe plant. Then, when my boyfriend and I were walking through a garden centre, I spotted some aloe plants. I instantly remembered the magical plant and its healing capabilities that I used to covet as a child. “I have to get one”  I said to my boyfriend.

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Here are some benefits of aloe vera:

  • Skincare: I rub some of the gel on my face every other night. It is super moisturizing and anti-bacterial so it helps heal and prevent acne. It has really helped to fade my spots, soften my skin and keep pimples at bay. It is amazing… honestly.
  • Ease sunburns: If you spent too much time in the sun and have a burn to show for it, aloe can help! Just rub some of the gel on your burn and it will help soothe the pain and bring down any swelling.
  • Aloe has TONS of vitamins & minerals: Vitamin A, C, E, folic acid, B1, B2, B3, B6, B12 and choline are all found in the aloe plant. There are also 20 minerals such as calcium, zinc, selenium, iron, potassium, copper and manganese.
  • If you have problems with digestion, try aloe! IBS, acid reflux, constipation, diarrhea – they can all be treated by aloe! Aloe reduces the amount of “bad” bacteria in our digestive systems which leads to a regulated cycle.
  • Detox: since aloe is a gelatinous plant, it helps to absorb toxins as it moves through our digestive systems. It takes the toxins with it when it is excreated from our system.
  • Get sick less: aloe helps to boost our immune systems. Because of the anti-oxidant properties and its high levels of vitamins and minerals, it can actually help your body fight against viruses and infections. It is also said to help lower a fever.
  • Weight loss: yes, I went there. If something claims to help with weight loss, it will sell. But for real, because of the anti-oxidant, digestive aiding properties of this “magical” plant, it can absolutely aid in weight loss.

Eating/drinking it is totally safe – to a certain extent. Just like anything else, moderation is key. Be sure to research how to ingest it and what the best dosage is.

I hope you find aloe as magical as I do 🙂


Fully Raw Pasta with Tomato Sauce



I’m so proud of myself for making this fully raw “pasta” with tomato sauce! Oh my gosh everyone… it was awesome! I couldn’t believe how yummy it was!

I’m going to make it again and get photos of each step for you.

Let’s take a closer look shall we:

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Nothing was cooked. IT WAS SO GOOD! I’m not going to lie, it was bizarre to be eating a “pasta” that wasn’t hot; very peculiar… but I got over it and then had seconds.

I promise to have the recipe for you as soon as I make it again (I honestly don’t remember everything that I put in)

Do you have any raw dinner dishes that I should try?

Getting Back on the Wagon


Well ladies and gentlemen, I have fallen off the wagon.

I was so careful about the foods and drinks I was consuming until recently. Camping, cottages, trailers and parties have all taken their toll on my diet.

Hamburgers, hotdogs, processed foods, packaged potato salad, cheese and more cheese. As much as I love the taste of all of these things, I know that I have been eating too much of them. I really haven’t eaten much in the way of fresh fruits and veggies… gasp! I know. I feel like a bachelor in college. Easy, fast foods seem to be the way in the summer time. I can’t really lug my juicer around to cottages and campsites, now can I?

I have also ignored my exercise regiment… completely. I feel like S#!+ now.

What’s my plan, you may ask? To get back into the swing of things. I may not be able to take my juicer with me on my weekend excursions, but hey! I still have all week!

Here’s my plan

– My favourite green juice (Kale, cucumbers, celery, lemon, ginger, apples and pineapple)
– 1 banana and/or chia pudding

– Carrot, apple and spinach juice
– Raw vegetable salad (kale, tomatoes, arugula, mushrooms, avocado & raw dressing or soy sauce)
– A plateful of fruits (peaches, pears, strawberries, raspberries – whatever I have!)

– Stir fry, vegan rice pasta dishes, sweet potatoes, chicken (I know… I do eat some meat), rice dishes etc.
– Vegetables, lots of vegetables
– Plate of fruit for dessert (again, whatever I have)

Snacks (1 -3 per day, depending on how hungry I am):
– Rice crackers and/or carrots and hummus
– Fruit
– Cucumber salad
– Cashews
– Almonds
– Granola

– As much water as possible throughout the day
– Black coffee (1-2 cups)
– Almond milk (when I want something creamy)

This eating plan is NOT to lose weight, as I am at a healthy weight already. I am just eating this way to promote health and wellness. When I eat good, whole foods, my body thanks me by providing me with more energy, a happier brain, shiny hair, soft skin and strong nails.

When I’m away, I will bring a ton of fruits and vegetables with me to eat throughout the day. It may be more expensive than a package of hotdogs, but I feel so much better when eating fresh plant-based foods. Also, it is the season for farm-fresh fruits and veggies which means farmers’ markets. You can get such a better deal when you shop for locally grown produce.

I also need to get back into my fitness routine. I have a gym down the road from me that I pay for each month. During the summer months, it is more difficult to get myself to the gym, but I’m going to at least take daily walks outside with my boyfriend.

I feel like this post was very new-years-resolution-y. Whatever, it’s now the middle of the year – who says resolutions have to be at the beginning of the year?

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Mindful Positivity


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Have you ever paid attention to the things you think? Have you noticed any patterns? I don’t know about your mind, but mine is hardwired into thinking negatively. I’m not sure when this started to happen or why, but I have recently become more mindful of this fact.

I’ve noticed that not only do I think negatively about other people, but that I am extremely negative to myself. “I’m not that smart”. “I can’t think creatively”. “I suck at math”. “I’m never going to find a job”. What is the point to that? Why put yourself down so often? The answer: excuses. We create these excuses to make us believe that we are not able to reach our goals. That way, if we don’t reach our goals, we don’t feel bad.

It’s embarrassing the amount of times that I’ve caught myself thinking things like “life is out to get me” or “of course this is happening, I can’t do anything right”. It seriously disgusts me that I’ve fallen into a habit of thinking about myself so negatively. But imagine I stopped? Imagine if I turned those thoughts into positive ones? I believe that our brains are a lot more powerful than we think. Just think of the possibilities when we convince ourselves that we can do something. “I am smart”. “I feel so happy”. “I am a successful person”. Happiness ensues.

I found a really interesting TED Talk on changing the way you think and rewiring the brain to think more positively. It’s definitely worth a watch:

Are you mindful of your thoughts? How have you started to change the neural pathways in your brain?

Just Breathe










Have you ever felt down? Of course you have. It’s part of the human condition.

How do you get yourself out of that funk? Do you listen to music, read a book, talk to a friend? Do you handle it well? Do you drink yourself into oblivion to escape?

I get sad at around the same time each month (hint). I don’t handle it well. I don’t deal with stress, anxiety or sadness well at all. And you know what sucks? I have to go through this every month. So does my boyfriend. I really try to just get over it and see past the week or so of sadness. I know I’ll be back to my happy, bubbly self once again.

I start to dwell on the things in my life that aren’t perfect. The money I still owe, the job that I don’t love, the house that I don’t own. None of that bothers me the other 3 weeks of the month. Ahhh, good ol’ hormones.

Sometimes it makes me feel better when I write things down. I don’t have a journal per say, but I do have several word documents on my computer filled with pointless ramblings of a somewhat crazy hormonal mess. This is how I cope. It’s not a perfect method (clearly), but it does give me some release. I only write when I want to, or rather when I feel I need to. I never liked having a “journal” because of the pressure to write everyday.

One thing that writing my feelings down provides me with is the ability to breathe. After I read what I wrote, I get a feeling of lightness. I feel like my chest has loosened and that I am able to take a breath. Just breathe.

See if it works for you.

Much love to everyone. Just remember you are not alone – if I could give you a hug in real life I would, but you’ll just have to accept a virtual hug 🙂


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